Ladybug - Messenger of Self-Healing

I spent two days waiting for you to come home. You didn't.
I walked out my inpatience.
I stretched out my inflexibilities - mentally with deep breaths by the creek, and physically with some meditative asanas;
Determined not to get upset at your lack of attention, as I cooed and chanted to our growing baby still in my belly
- connecting our center chakras -
ready to be born any moment.
I couldn't help but feel myself start getting mad at you,
at your youthful immaturity,
at your negligence to my needs to be held by you,
watched and adored,
loved and coddled.

I moved through the day, finally watching the sun tip barely over the edge of the canyon ledge, and the shadow start to move down the sheer, looming wall; at least she was dependable and consistant - standing there day after day, strong, solid, powerful.

As I went to take the clothes off of the clothesline, I noticed several lady bugs covering just your t-shirts and nobody elses clothes, blowing in the wind on the line - clinging to the white, cotton, fabric.

I paused and smiled....
"how could I have been so selfish",
I thought.
"Did you have a good HEALING day or two?"

Lady bug reminded me that this is also your time to heal yourself, as I should be healing myself and working on my own desires, cravings, and short comings.

We heal ourselves. Then we can come together and be whole!!
Bless you for doing the work.

Thank you messenger Lady bug for reminding me to be patient with the process.
Deep Healing takes time.!
OM.

Baby Blessing!!
I didn't get any photos of the actual ceremony!! Some things are too sacred to capture in photographs, I guess. It just didn't feel right to me at the time.

Here's Ginger earlier that day smudging all the things we collected from nature to use in our dream catcher that we all built together - weaving our dreams and blessings for the baby, together into it later that night at the blessing ceremony.

The fire pit was to the left of Ginger (first photo) and down the hill a ways. Turned out to be a perfect night for a fire circle!!

Thanks everyone for coming and sharing with me your words and stories of encouragement!! I can't wait to meet my little babe. I am so happy to have all of you in my life!! I look forward to sharing our lives - you are wonderful people, and I am so thankful to have you all in my life!
Many Blessings!!
OM
Shanti